At the end of 2018, I began to experience what one might call a “Spiritual Awakening.”
What is a Spiritual Awakening?
To me, a Spiritual Awakening is when you come to the realization that you are an infinite spiritual being having a temporary human experience.
This is when you start to:
- realize you have psychic gifts
- truly understand what you’re really worth
- realize love is the answer to all things (self-love being the most important!)
- feel all the dots starting to connect and things are just magically making more sense now
- understand that you come from a place of pure love and light
- seek and speak more truth
- realize you’ve been lying to yourself about a lot of things and have been living in denial
- realize you’ve been standing in your own way
- get really real with yourself and realize what it is you really want
- realize you are both your ego and your soul and need to learn how to integrate the two
- get out of your own way and let your higher self step in
- realize you are always supported by the universe
- realize the law of attraction is what this universe runs on
- realize there is such a thing as aliens, spirits and dark entities
- realize you might have once thought you were alone, but you are coming to realize you are never and will ever be completely alone
- realize there’s a whole universe out there that is already supporting you, and you are just beginning to tap into it
In this post, I’m going to talk about the event that triggered the opening of my third eye, the unexpected things that happened after I “woke up,” how I started learning about spiritual awakenings, and what I’ve experienced and learned since then.
I also want to say everything I speak of in this post comes from a place of love and understanding. I’m simply just speaking my truth from my own perspective and am not writing it with any intention to harm or shame anyone else. That being said, I encapsulate this entire post with love, light, and protection, and I send infinite blessings to all parties who have been personally involved in my journey.
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The Event That Triggered the Opening of My Third Eye
My third eye opened while I was trying to uncover the truth behind the person I had been dating for the past 2 years. I didn’t know what was happening at the time, all I knew was something felt “off” because he was behaving very strangely, yet he wouldn’t come out with it and just tell me why.
So, being the natural truth-seeker that I am, he left me no choice but to start digging for the answers myself.
After not being able to logically figure out what was really going on, I decided to start listening to my intuition, as it has always helped guide me in the past. As I began to tune in, I started to notice that this intuitive experience felt different… it was more intense and much more clear like there had been some kind of shift that happened inside of me.
All of a sudden, I just had this “knowing” about things and I started to “see” things playing out within my mind’s eye. My physical body was having reactions and I could “feel” something very dark creeping into my realm of being. After using all of those senses, I then started to hear a little voice in my head, which told me something definitely wasn’t right here and that I was ready to see the truth.
I remember the exact moment his “mask” crumbled and fell to the ground. He was trying to use some kind of line on me… something I could tell was said with malicious intent… like he was trying to control me. For some reason, in that moment, I was able to see right past the words that were coming out of his mouth and straight through to the truth.
After that particular incident, I found that I could quite literally “see” straight through all his lies, especially when he started to change his stories. If I told him I didn’t believe whatever story he was telling me, he started telling me a whole new story that was completely different than the first one. And if I said I didn’t believe that one either, well he’d just start telling me another new story. I remember thinking to myself, “Dude, which story is it? These are all completely different.”
That’s when I realized he was just piling lies, on top of more lies, on top of more lies… and yet never actually unveiling the actual truth to me.
If he felt like he had to lie, then to me that meant he either did something he knew he wasn’t supposed to do or he did something he felt like I wouldn’t approve of. Either way, I saw this whole situation we were in as a huge red flag.
Not only that, but I could see he was lying to me about things he really didn’t even have to lie about.
It was like the lies just dripped off his tongue every time he opened his mouth, and that’s when something clicked in me. That’s when I realized that the person I thought I had been dating for the past 2 years wasn’t actually a real person. This person standing in front of me wasn’t like that person AT ALL… in fact, he was the complete opposite.
The truth was, in setting firmer boundaries, I had stumbled upon his truth… and that shit was painful as fuck.
But it was also necessary.
The truth forced me to come to terms with the fact that, yep, I had indeed been in yet another toxic relationship. A two-year relationship that consisted of nothing but complete bullshit.
A flood of even darker emotions came over me when I realized he truly did not, nor did he ever, love or care about me in even the slightest way. This was a familiar soul-crushing feeling that came after ending many of my past relationships.
The whole relationship was fake. Another fake relationship. Another person who really did not give two fucks about me, no matter how hard I tried. More time and energy wasted with another person who not only didn’t love me but actually straight-up hated me. A person who actually spent our entire relationship intentionally trying to hurt me just because he couldn’t stand to see me happy.
And the worst part was that this was not my first rodeo with this kind of thing. This was a cycle. And a vicious one at that.
These were the types of men I chose to date for a good part of my life and I didn’t know why or how to stop choosing these types.
All I knew was I had had ENOUGH.
I was done having to experience these dark, angry, sad, depressing and frustrating feelings over and over again after every relationship ended. I was 37-years-old and, in my mind, that was far too old to continue putting up with this kind of bullshit.
I decided right then and there that I truly never wanted to feel like this ever again.
At that moment, I felt like I was ready to change my ways and do whatever it took to heal whatever was inside of me that was causing me to experience the same kinds of traumatic experiences over and over again in life.
This was definitely going to be my last toxic relationship ever, no matter what. I wanted real love and for fuck-sake, I was going to find it!
During the final hours of our relationship, I had told him that he needs to seek professional psychological help, to which, of course, he gave me some kind of excuse as to why he couldn’t seek help. Not long after that, I realized that if he needed psychological help then I definitely needed some kind of help as well, because I obviously couldn’t use my logical brain to think my way out of these types of shit-show relationships.
So I decided right then and there that I was going to start doing the opposite of everything he told me to do and everything he was choosing not to do. I wanted to grow and he wanted to revert back to his old, toxic behaviors… and he wanted to pull me down there with him.
I wasn’t interested in the kind of lifestyle he was proposing and so I started to do the one thing I have always struggled with the most:
I let go of my pride/ego and started asking for help.
What Happened After My Third Eye Opened
After realizing that I couldn’t trust him in even the slightest way, I heard this little voice in my head tell me to move out as soon as possible
So I went out and found a new place to live literally the next day and moved out of his place just a few weeks later. I ended up moving into my own place, despite any financial concerns, because I knew how important it was to give myself a safe and secure place. I needed some peace and I needed to be completely alone to figure my shit out and heal myself.
It was the best decision I could make at that time because I knew how hard it was to heal from something when you’re still living in a toxic environment or still seeing that person who does not have your best interest at heart.
I needed clean air.
Once I moved into my own place, I decided to seek closure on these “off” feelings I had about him and in return of my investigative skills, I received two pieces of solid proof that my intuition had been spot on.
Those two pieces of evidence gave me all the information I needed to know and I was now absolutely sure that I had spent the past two years in another toxic relationship. One that was full of lies, infidelity, deception, delusion, gaslighting, selfishness, manipulation, stealing, verbal abuse, psychological abuse, emotional abuse, sexual abuse, financial abuse, chaos, confusion and to be completely honest, pure fucking evil.
After analyzing the entire relationship, I realized that my intuition had been spot on the entire time… the red flags had been popping from the beginning and if I would have just my trusted my intuition from the start, I wouldn’t have had to go through all of this again.
It was a hard lesson to learn, but I received the message loud and clear:
Always trust your intuition and set strong boundaries.
After discovering his truth, I tried to get back to living a normal, happy life again, but instead, I began to experience some creepy, disturbing and odd “supernatural” kinds of things.
At this point, I still had no idea that I was now “awake” and so I didn’t really understand what exactly was happening to me… all I knew was that I felt scared. I also felt like I was starting to go crazy and started losing a lot of sleep over it. My new place wasn’t really turning out to be the kind of peaceful and healing place I had hoped it would be.
Here’s What I Experienced Instead:
1. I felt a ghost climb into my bed with me.
I literally felt it jump up and onto the foot of my bed and then slowly crawled on all fours all the way up to my face. I had my eyes closed but I could see with my mind’s eye it was a creepy fucking terror dog… like the one from Ghostbusters. Once it got right in my face it started to growl at me. I told it to “get the fuck out!” and when I opened my eyes, nothing was there. It had left.
Yeah, terrifying.
2. I felt an overwhelming feeling of death when I came home and walked into my apartment one night.
Not long after the ghost incident, I discovered that someone in my building “fell” from their balcony and died. This happened the morning after I felt this “death” feeling in my apartment, about 10-hours later. Maybe I was having a premonition? Their body fell about 100 yards from where my car was parked and left a stain that was in the shape of a body. For about a month after that incident, every time I drove by the spot where they fell, I could feel their spirit reaching out to me, kind of like the polyps from Ursula’s Garden:
Yeah, pretty terrifying as well. I ended up flying home to Massachusetts shortly after this, partially because I was too afraid to be alone in my place.
3. I started to feel the presence of dark entities.
There was another person in my life who I always knew had something “off” about them. Right after I had my awakening, I experienced something I’ll never forget. When I greeted them with a hug, I immediately felt an invisible, dark force punch me in the chest and then push me away from them. This then created a very weird energy between us and from that moment I knew their truth was about to be revealed to me as well. Just a few hours later their truth was revealed to me and I learned that they were not the kind of person I wanted to get anywhere near again.
4. I started seeing right through situations and felt a direct connection to the truth.
I started to notice that I could see right through people’s lies and/or the fact that they were living in a state of denial. I began to notice that I could see exactly what was causing them to lie and could see how they were standing in their own way. Of course, when I started speaking up about this, I never seemed to get the best reaction and they would just continue to live in denial. So I began to hold back on speaking my truth and decided I was only going to speak it to those who asked me for my honest advice. I also started distancing myself from anyone I could tell was living a life that was full of lies.
As an empath, I already feel a lot in general, so once my third eye opened, it made me feel everything I was already feeling, except the feeling was MULTIPLIED BY ONE HUNDRED. For a few months, I had this almost-overwhelming feeling like the world was out to get me and that I was going to be annihilated. I found out later why I was feeling this way: it was because I had a psychic cord attachment to my ex and I was actually just feeling what he was feeling, even though I hadn’t seen him or been near him in weeks.
So yeah, that was pleasant.
I ended up having the cord “cut” by an energy healer and the feeling was gone immediately after that.
6. Feelings of paranoia and being watched/stalked.
Pretty sure this came along with the fact that I was psychically tied to my ex. I constantly felt like I was under surveillance and to be honest, I still feel that way… however, I’m no longer afraid because I know what kind of power I hold within me. 😉
7. Feelings of extreme fear and anxiety for the first few months after “waking up.”
In addition to feeling what my ex was feeling, I also felt stuck, like I couldn’t write anything on my blog or tell anyone about what happened because then I would become a target to him. I felt if I told the world about his truth, he was going to severely punish me. I wanted to talk about it because it was part of my story (the story I’m writing now) but the feelings of fear and anxiety were just too much for me to handle at the time so I decided to wait until I felt more healed and ready.
I also felt afraid to write on my blog and be my real, authentic self going forward because I had learned through him that that is how you get hurt and taken advantage of. After going through all of this, I realized that’s why he lied so much, as a way to protect himself and his fragile ego. If you think about it, how can you be hurt by someone if you’re not actually the person you claim yourself to be? I think this is actually why a lot of our society hides who they really are… everyone is afraid of getting hurt so they just put up these walls to protect themselves. They lie, they live in denial and they numb themselves out with drugs, alcohol, food, workaholism, etc. so that they don’t have to deal with the pain (I’m definitely guilty of some of these things myself, so trust me, I get it!)
8. I was having lots of nightmares.
I rarely have nightmares but I started experiencing all kinds of scary shit at night, probably because I was living in a state of fear on a daily basis.
There were a few other incidents that happened, which I have decided not to share in this post, but I will say they were very disturbing and that I would advise anyone who is dealing with narcissists/demonic entities to trust their intuition, document everything, and seek help if you feel you need it. I personally ended up having to file a police report due to a specific incident that happened. After that, I decided to seek some assistance from my family’s energy healer, who worked some kind of magic to keep these dark people/spirits away from me. I don’t know what she did or how she did it, but after working with her, the harassment I was receiving completely stopped.
Seeking Help
All of the things I just mentioned happened over the course of about 6 months. Needless to say, because I didn’t know what the hell was going on, this was, quite frankly, a very scary time in my life for me. I would go so far to say it was probably the scariest time of my life, ever.
I didn’t exactly know what to do, so I decided to just follow my internal guidance over that 6-month period.
Here’s where it led me.
I Invested in a Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Program
A few weeks after moving into my own place, I decided to invest in a Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Program created by internationally recognized narcissistic abuse recovery expert, Melanie Tonia Evans.
The program ended up becoming a huge cornerstone in my recovery from all the abuse I have endured over the course of my entire life, and I strongly recommend this program to anyone who is or thinks they might be dealing with someone who has a personality disorder like this.
I have learned that we attract narcissists because we have traumas that have been suppressed into our subconscious mind. We can learn everything under the sun about narcissists as a way to help us protect ourselves from them but unfortunately, that is not what is actually going to keep them away for good.
Take me for example, I’ve attracted one narcissist, after another narcissist, after narcissist over and over again throughout a good part of my life. I only started learning about them in 2013 and since then have done A TON of research that I thought would help me learn how to spot one from a mile away. But no. It just kept happening regardless of all the knowledge I gained.
So I what I learned is that it’s not a logical thing that keeps them away from us, but rather an energetic thing. We have to go in and meet the traumas within our bodies and then shift them out, one-by-one, until we are no longer an energetic match to them (part of why we get hooked to them is because of a trauma bond). Once these traumas are shifted out of our bodies and our ego becomes fully integrated with our soul, that’s when we’ll stop attracting narcissists into our lives.
I Began Working with an Energy Healer
In addition to my narcissistic abuse recovery program, I also decided to start working 1-on-1 with an energy healer.
Every three weeks she helped me clear my chakras/energy blocks and mentored me through what was going on with me spiritually and why some of these things were happening. She also helped me clear all my past lives and helped me heal myself at a deeper level.
Through her assistance, I have been able to heal, raise my vibration, and expand my consciousness at an incredibly fast rate!
Now I gotta say, healing isn’t always the prettiest or easiest thing to do, and it certainly doesn’t just magically happen overnight, as there’s still a lot of inner work you gotta do, but I’ve been committed to my healing every day for almost a year now and for that simple reason alone, I am now understanding what self-love really means.
Self-love is loving yourself enough to take care of yourself first, mind, body, and soul.
No one else can do your healing work for you, you gotta do it yourself! If you want things to get better in your life, you have to get better first.
To anyone who is struggling and feeling frustrated with your life, please put some of your magical energy into HEALING YOURSELF!! Because you are worth it.
If you need help with this, an energy healer is a good place to start! In fact, I think everyone should have one of these by their side. 😉
Oh, I’m Just Going Through a Spiritual Awakening
Right before I began working with my energy healer, I started doing research on what was happening to me and why I was experiencing all these crazy things.
Google and YouTube became my go-to resources for information about this kind of stuff and still are to this day (it’s actually how I spend a lot of my time.)
I am so grateful for the bloggers and YouTubers who have taken the time to create free content that actually helps people with this kind of spiritual stuff. I actually feel a calling to become more of a “Content Creator,” too. I think it’s what I am meant to be doing.
I’ve been blogging for quite a few years now (and actually have 4 blogs total, if you didn’t know) so I think going forward I’m going to start creating more content on this blog that revolves around all the stuff I’m talking about in this post… because more and more people are going to be going through these Spiritual Awakenings soon and so the collective is really going to need more people to help out!
I feel like I’m meant to be one of those people. 😉
Anyways, back to my story… after doing some research, I came to realize that the reason why I was experiencing all these crazy, supernatural things was because I was now “awake” and I had transitioned from an unconscious state to a conscious state.
This new state of consciousness meant I had officially unhooked myself from “The Matrix” and I was now more connected to the spiritual realm.
Before this all went down, I never really considered myself as someone who was “into spiritual stuff,” however, after spending massive amounts of time learning about spiritual awakenings, lightworkers, Starseeds, crystals, etc., I gotta admit that this is the only thing in life that actually makes sense to me.
Literally, nothing else in my life has ever made any sense to me, and now I understand why… it’s because this whole entire human experience is all just a hologram, a dream. It’s all just a game.
So yeah, what I have been going through is called a “Spiritual Awakening” and with that can come some pretty unpleasant and odd “Ascension Symptoms.”
What is Ascension?
This is fascinating stuff (well, to me at least).
If you didn’t know, we are currently experiencing a universal shift in consciousness (transitioning from 3rd dimension to 5th dimension) and as we are going through this transition, we are also experiencing a shift within our bodies.
Ascension is the integration of the physical body with the higher self/soul.
I have learned that our bodies are upgrading and increasing their personal vibration so that they will be able to exist within this new paradigm/awareness of consciousness that the collective as a whole is creating.
In order for our bodies to exist within this plane of consciousness, they will have to upgrade, which is apparently why I have been experiencing strange physical ailments and emotional triggers that come up out of nowhere. These things have been happening to me as a way to bring me certain lessons that will help me expand my consciousness even more.
It’s necessary for these things to happen to in my body so that it can rid it of certain energies and help me better align to the high vibration that I am ascending into.
Basically, as the body upgrades and shifts, we may start to experience changes within every aspect of our being, which includes our sleep patterns, the foods that we crave (usually going to a plant-based diet), and the people we keep around or let go of.
Ascension is like tuning in to a particular radio station frequency – you can’t hear a particular radio station unless you’re tuned in to its particular frequency. This is why you shouldn’t waste your time and energy on someone who isn’t tuned into your frequency… they will never “hear” you or “understand” you until they go through their own journey and experience whatever they need to experience in order for them to understand. We are all on our own journeys and we have to respect that about each other.
A spiritual awakening is a journey of finding your strength from within and yet still interacting with love, gratitude and compassion for all walks of life, including yourself (self-love!)
Why My Third Eye Opened When It Did
I was wondering why my third eye opened when it did so I did some pondering about it.
I now believe my third eye opened when it did because of the immense pain I was in.
Although I’ve always tried to live my life as fearlessly as possible, I have actually had many of my worst fears actually happen. But you know what? I got through them all and I’m still here, shining brighter than ever. 😉
Just about a year ago, I realized that one of my biggest fears had happened again when my past trauma of narcissistic abuse resurfaced and I realized that I was going to have to recover yet another narcissistic abuse relationship ALL OVER AGAIN.
Seriously, one time is more than enough, but A SECOND TIME? I felt like I couldn’t deal with what was to come.
The first one happened 7 years prior and was, what I believe, the most traumatic experience I had ever been through in my entire life. It had completely shattered my belief system into what seemed like a million pieces and I suffered deeply because of it for many years. There was a lot of PTSD, rage, fear, shame, etc. all the way up until the most recent relationship (I’ll have to talk about that first experience in another blog post some time).
Because of all this pain I was in, I realize now that I truly had finally reached my threshold for pain (in fact, my extremely high pain tolerance is probably a big part of why the abuse went on for so long.) But enough was enough and I decided I was done with abusive relationships for good.
Because I finally decided I was done, I believe my soul finally allowed me to see the full truth… by opening my third eye and allowing me to experience my psychic gifts at a very high level. Without even realizing what was going on, I naturally began using these psychic gifts to protect myself from further manipulation and harm.
I also want to add in here that although I felt very dumb afterward for falling for yet another narcissist, I learned that people with very high IQ’s are actually drawn to narcissists because of the fact that they are innately curious souls. Narcissists are super weird – like complex puzzles – and intelligent people often find it “fun” to try and figure that puzzle out… until they realize they wish they never even opened that Pandora’s box to begin with.
So if you are a person who’s feeling dumb after being involved with a narcissist, I suggest watching the video connected to the link in the above paragraph and see how you feel afterward. I think that in itself will help you feel better immediately. 😉
Why I Was Experiencing Scary Things After My Third Eye Opened
The reason why I was experiencing all these dark and supernatural things right after I “woke up” was because when your third eye opens, you automatically get “turned on” to the spirit world. When this happens, entities can start to flock to your light (kind of like moths to a flame) and that can bring some pretty dark and creepy stuff with it.
Entities also often attach themselves to people who have heavy emotional baggage and weakened auras, and so I think it is safe to say that I was a pretty prime candidate for all these things and that’s part of the reason why I experienced what I experienced.
I Learned That I Have Psychic Abilities
Throughout the last 10 months, I have learned that I have a whole set of psychic abilities. In fact, I have actually always had these psychic abilities, but they are just stronger now, now that I’m more connected with the spiritual realm.
It’s funny, I always believed I had psychic abilities, ever since I was a kid (my mom can vouch for this one) yet whenever I shared this belief with other people, they always told me I was “crazy.” So I just stopped telling people and kind of brushed the belief aside.
But yeah, now I know for sure that I DEFINITELY have multiple psychic gifts and all of them are actually very strong.
Psychic abilities are developed by using our senses (not our mind) and can help us make better decisions instead of using logical reasoning, which stems from the mind/ego. I have been having a lot of fun developing these gifts and honestly can’t wait to develop them more!
At this point in time, I have discovered that I have the following psychic abilities:
1. Clairvoyance.
Clear seeing. This is probably a huge reason why I ended up becoming a graphic and website designer. I have also experienced things like movie clips running through my mind and showing me events that will be happening in the future. I believe these to be premonitions.
2. Claircognizance.
Clear knowing. I often receive downloads of information, sometimes out of nowhere. This usually comes through my dreams or whenever I’m writing, which is probably part of why I’ve found success in blogging. I believe it has also helped give me ideas of things I can create that will eventually become successful, as long as I just put in the work. It’s just this “knowing” I have within me that helps guide me in the right direction.
3. Clairaudience.
Clear hearing. I often hear voices inside my head giving me little tips on what to do next. I have been learning how to discern between angel voices and trickster voices, and when I listen to the angel voices, I find that I greatly benefit from taking action.
4. Clairsentience.
Clear feeling. I’m pretty sure this naturally comes with my empathic abilities, which have been quite difficult for me to manage over the years, especially as I’ve become more sensitive with this whole ascension thing. I have, however, been getting much better at this over the past few months and am actually learning just how special this ability actually is (and that it’s an ability that is very much needed on the planet right now!)
This ability allows me to actually feel exactly how another person is feeling or what their current state of being is, even if their words tell me otherwise. I have also learned that I don’t necessarily have to feel other people’s stuff all the time, I can actually turn it on and off whenever I choose. This sensitivity helps me really relate to people so I can use it to help others in a very special human-kind-of-way.
Being an empath and having clairsentience means that I am not fragile by any means, I am the complete opposite. If I wasn’t strong I would completely crumble just by letting my guard down and being my authentic self with other people, but because this ability brings a great inner strength, I am always able to quickly bounce back from any setback and at an even higher level than I was at before. Pretty fucking cool actually.
5. Telepathy.
Mind to mind communication. I have been experiencing something new over the past few months, where I will hear in my mind what someone is about to say, and then seconds later that person will literally say what I heard in my mind, word for word, and in exactly the same way I heard it.
Crazy stuff, I know. This is partially why I thought I was going crazy.
Who knows, I may discover that I have some additional psychic abilities as I continue tapping more into the spirit realm!
If you want to learn more about telepathy, feel free to check out this video from one of my favorite Spiritual YouTubers, Phil Good: Empathy to Telepathy
Here are a Few Stories About My Psychic Abilities:
After I decided to end my relationship for good and move out, I remember I was laying in bed one day, feeling like absolute shit. That’s when I heard this little voice in my head (clairaudience) tell me to go get a Reiki treatment, and so I decided to listen to it.
I had never had Reiki done before but it ended up being exactly what I needed because it helped remove some blocks and move some energy around in my body so that I could get past some of the initial struggles I was going through.
In addition, something really crazy happened while I was getting my treatment done. At one point, while I was laying down on the table, my therapist was doing work up near my head and all of a sudden I felt someone wiggle my big toe on my left foot. Since she was nowhere near my foot I realized that there was DEFINITELY someone or something else in the room with us (a spirit guide perhaps?)
I personally thought that was super fascinating and is probably one of the things that piqued my interest in learning more about “spiritual” stuff in general.
Something similar happened 6 months later when I was getting another Reiki treatment done by my mom. She was working on my right side and I felt something else in the room gently sit down on the table on my left side and put their hand on my left thigh.
Shit sounds crazy, I know, but I only seek and speak truths here!
Another clairaudient experience happened about a month after I moved into my own apartment: I was feeling really depressed for a while and didn’t feel like I wanted to get out of bed. One morning, I heard a voice in my head tell me to start writing. I didn’t want to at the time, so I didn’t.
The next morning, I heard that voice again… “JUST WRITE.” So I decided to listen to it.
I began journaling and just let myself type freely (in Evernote) about whatever was coming up for me that day. I found it be really helpful, so I started doing it every day, creating new notes for different days and keeping track of the dates and times I was writing, just to have something to look back upon if I ever needed to or wanted to.
As I started doing that more and more, I began receiving floods of information that came through to me out of what seemed like nowhere. And I found that I would often write, and write, and write for like a whole hour or two straight!
Many of these things helped me access massive breakthroughs in my healings while other things actually helped me predict future events.
I later discovered that what I was doing was called “channeling” through automatic writing, which essentially meant that I was allowing a higher power to work through me… I was just the physical body that was writing the words for this higher power.
Over time, I started to get this feeling like I might be some kind of channeler and messenger.
I guess I’ll find out the more I write! 😉
Am I Afraid of My Psychic Gifts?
I have had some people ask me if I’m afraid of my psychic “gifts.” To which I say hell no!
Why would I be afraid? Especially when they can help me better navigate through life!
Plus they are gifts from God/Source/a Higher Power (whatever you prefer to call it) which means they come from a place of pure love and light. When something comes from pure love and light, there is no reason to feel afraid (but if you find that you do have psychic gifts yourself and are feeling afraid, I recommend finding an energy healer to help relieve you… they really are magical!)
I Learned that I Can Read Energy
In addition to my psychic gifts, I have also been developing another gift of mine – reading energy. I find that I really enjoy sitting back and observing people for a while (as an introvert, I’ve always been an observer) and then seeing if I can predict how they will behave based on what I observe about their auric energy.
I have found that I am usually spot on every time! 😉
I’m sure there’s probably more to this ability coming soon, but I’ll have to see wait and see what that is! I’ll be looking forward to it, though!
Working with Crystals
One thing I kept seeing in my mind after my third eye opened was crystals. I was never really into crystals but all of a sudden felt like I had to have a whole slew of them.
Luckily, my mom is all into that kind of stuff and even decided to start a new business at the beginning of 2019 that sells crystals! If you’re interested in purchasing any crystals, you can check out her site here: Moon Soul Magic (designed by me!)
She hooked me up with a bunch of hand-picked crystals that I’ve been using for various healings, channelings, and protections, which I gotta say have really been helping!
I’ve been Going to Live Spiritual Events
In May of 2019, I went to a spiritual event in Las Vegas called “Raise Your Vibrational Set Point” put on my a couple of YouTuber’s I follow (Victor Oddo, Aaron Doughty, and Leeor Alexandra).
Funny story – A few days before I heard about this event, I had said to myself that “I wish there was a way for me to meet them. I feel like I need to see them in person.”
A few days later I received an email that said they were putting on their first live event in Las Vegas and that I would be able to meet all three of them at the same time!
I ended up buying my ticket and drove to Vegas by myself for the weekend. I had the best time and even manifested a whole bunch of stuff I was hoping to do, like finding a guide to take me on a hike through the Red Rocks!
At the “Raise Your Vibrational Set Point” event, I got to meet my favorite YouTubers, plus I met a bunch of like-minded people who were high energy, positive and just fucking happy human beings who could speak this new spiritual lingo I was learning. I felt like I had found my tribe and ended up connecting with a whole bunch of them.
If you’re into spiritual stuff, I highly suggest hitting up a live event… there’s really nothing like it!
Learning About Spiritual Awakenings + the Laws of the Universe
I’ve spent a majority of my time over the past 10 months or so learning all kinds of stuff about spiritual awakenings, the law of attraction, universal laws, star seeds, lightworkers and more.
Learning about all this stuff helps me feel much safer in this world… a world that seems so incredibly cold and cruel at times.
I believe I am one of the 140,000 lightworkers that came to this planet to help people heal and raise the vibration of the planet. I also believe I am a Starseed and actually come from another planet.
I know… I sound crazy. But I’m not here to appease the non-believers.
I believe I’m here to share my love (I have a HUGE heart), share my stories and to make some fucking waves.
I’m not here to be controlled, I’m here to share love, share things that heal people and just BE my true, authentic self every damn day.
If any of my stories in this post resonate with you in even the slightest way, please feel free to comment below, email me, follow me on Instagram, follow me on Facebook, follow me on Pinterest… where ever you hang out or whatever you feel called to do!
I don’t know about you but I am DONE feeling so isolated and alone. DONE feeling like no one gets me. DONE being abused by basically everyone around me. DONE hiding because of my sensitivities.
I want to find my tribe and ascend with like-minded beings! Let’s go live a vibrant life together and go on some fun adventures, or at the very least connect online and follow each other’s journeys!
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Expressing Love + Gratitude
Words cannot express how grateful I am for all the love and support I have received from my mom over the past year (and all the years before that.) She has been my ROCK and is the only person who has truly been there for me through every breakdown and breakthrough of mine.
I have learned a lot about who in my life is a real friend and who was just there for the party. My mom truly is my best friend and will always be my priority going forward because of that. 🙂
I’ve been slowly learning to give less and less of my time and energy to the dysfunctional relationships in my life (which included friends, family, boyfriends, clients, etc.) and started giving MORE love and attention to MYSELF and others who have shown me through their behaviors that they truly do love me and truly do have my best interest at heart.
From this point forward, I’m done bending over backward for people who don’t value or appreciate me (and now that I’m “awake” I truly can “see” someone’s true intentions so there’s no more trying to hide your truth from me! Haha).
I have had to have some really hard talks with A LOT of people over the past few months and have actually lost most of my “friends” because of this. But then again, is it really a loss if they weren’t a real friend to begin with?
A real friend doesn’t intentionally try to hurt you, a real friend doesn’t use you, and a real friend shows up for you when you need a friend the most, and a real friend keeps it real… they don’t sugar-coat shit. I’m a person who doesn’t even need a lot from others, but what I know I do need is to have people around me who not only think more like me but who actually ARE more like me.
I feel like I have experienced break up, after break up, after break up over the past year. First, my boyfriend, then a whole bunch of friends who I thought were some of my best friends, then a bunch of clients.
As much as this has hurt me over and over again, I realize now that this is all due to a vibrational shift within myself. I’m growing and ascending and others are just making their own choice to stay where they are currently at. And that’s totally okay… we are all on our own journeys and there’s a thing called “free will” which means we can do whatever we want (and should do, it’s our birthright!)
I can now accept this and allow myself to keep moving forward without spending any more energy trying to motivate or change anyone. If people are truly happy, I truly am happy for them. I literally just want everyone to BE happy.
I am not here to change people, I’m here to change myself. When I do that, I know I will no longer be a vibrational match for some people but I will create more space in my life for some new people to enter. People who are better aligned with me.
I still have a few solid people in my life who have proven to me they are the real deal. THOSE are the people I will continue to love on and show support going forward. I am now choosing to only invest my time and energy into those who invest their time and energy into me.
If there’s any kind of life advice I can give to others out there, it’s exactly this.
Only extend your full love to those who extend their full love back to you.
Also, people can only love you to the extent that they love themselves. If they don’t love themselves, they can’t possibly love you. This is why self-love is so important (and this does NOT mean selfish! There is a difference.)
I’d also like to say that I am extremely grateful for all the people who are no longer in my life, as many of them were some of the biggest catalysts to my awakening. Because of that fact alone, I truly cannot thank them enough!
I send them my love and hope that they are infinitely blessed from this day forward. 🙂
What My Spiritual Awakening Taught Me